rant

you know why third world countries are third world countries?  because they don't get sex ed.  they just fuck like animals and the men refuse to assume responsibility because they're not the ones dealing with hormones and another living being inside of them.

on another note.. i don't even own an unlimited metrocard anymore.  that's how bum status i am.  i need to get out of the house.  i'm getting sick.

is monogamy a practical or natural thing?  is it possible to feel such an emotion that will make you stick by just one person for the rest of your life?  or are human beings just overestimating themselves as usual?

early morning

what is it to "know"?
to know is to overestimate your own capacity for understanding something, and to underestimate the magnitude of the entirety of that something.
is there even an entirety? a chair, a cup, a house, a person..
knowledge is tainted by history and memories.  knowledge is not autonomous. we are not autonomous.

culture shock

back after 10 days consisting of:

2 snow storms
2 nights of clubbing
good food for the most part
difficult social situations
x-ray, mri

i am 5 pounds fatter and happy to be back. there seems to be a reason why certain countries are considered third world countries.

is NY really a place for exiles?  i like my fellow exiles. i can never leave this place.

that country on the other side of the world is a place for visiting dreams and fantasies.  and then i realize that those are only dreams and fantasies.  i have to wake up.  reality is too different.  i can't be high on dreams my entire life.

money, power, church, social codes. disgusting and excessively unnecessary use of excuses for the waste of human resources.
what happened to the grand tradition?  what happened to all the great people?  why is everyone's heads so shit-filled in that country?

i like my NY. i am an exile who is at home.